Showing posts with label meditation. Show all posts
Showing posts with label meditation. Show all posts

Friday, June 26, 2009

Getaway


New England is the place for me,
A cozy cottage by the sea,
Seagulls calling near the shore,
The water sending back its roar.


That's part of a little poem I wrote (without paper or pencil) in 10th grade, wearing my blue & gold cheerleading uniform, at night, on a noisy bus coming home from a basketball tournament......typical me, putting off assignments till the last minute, but I got an A- on it. For a landlocked Southern girl, I've always been drawn to the sea, and when I learned what meditation was, that cottage, actually just a hut in the sand, became my escape. It's still there (in my mind), sort of ramshackled and looking as if it were decorated by a 1960's Flower Child, beads hanging in the doorways, colorful, rumpled cloth mats on wood floors and lots of floor pillows to snuggle into........this is the first time I've told anyone about it.

My college English professor said that he meditated, and of course I wanted to know how, as I plan to know a little bit about everything before I expire. Following his explanation, I went home, tried it and was hooked.

Since then, I've found lots of kinds of meditation, one of them being prayer, but prayer (and I've probably been doing it all wrong) seems to be giving God a to-do list, and what I consider pure mediation is the opposite, simply opening myself up to......I call it the Source........("The tao that can be described in words is not the eternal tao"). When I'm needing to escape from reality, I meditate and envision my seaside hut.

The purest form of meditation, though, seeks to avoid dwelling on images, a tad scary at first because we operate on images. Here's how I do it:
I go into a quiet room, blinds drawn, noise makers like TV and radio off, find a comfortable spot to sit cross legged, sometimes on the carpet, sometimes if I'm feeling stiff, it's in my huge, soft recliner surrounded by pillows. I rest my hands in my lap or on my knees with middle fingers touching thumbs. Some people chant a mantra, but I usually go it alone. Eyes closed, I concentrate on the so-called "third eye" in the middle of my forehead and upon measured, slow breathing. As I begin to feel connected, my head invariably leans backward, and I wait in the attitude of "show me what you want me to know". If something is really bothering me, I may present it or him or her, merely as a word and wait. Sometimes I get insights so unexpected I'm in total awe. Sometimes it comes the next morning when I wake up. Sometimes not at all. But I always feel renewed, and when I'm too long between meditations, I wonder why I waited so long.

Thursday, June 25, 2009

Journey


"A tree that reaches past your embrace grows from one small seed.
A structure over nine stories high begins with a handful of earth.
A journey of a thousand miles starts with a single step."
Tao 64

Life happens. And these days I'm not quite as obsessed with my digital art as I was for the previous 5 years. I've decided to blog about bits of wisdom I've gathered along life's journey, and art will find its way in there, too, because that's also very much a part of who I am; but I've had as much counselor education and practice as art training and painting, so it feels right to share this here. Anyway, Deb said if I would write, she would read it. Deb, you're only obliged to read once.

I've been in sort of a meditative, waiting place lately, waiting for whatever inspiration life might send my way to get started on my next adventure (i.e. obsession). It has been said that in order to be happy, we need someone to love, something to do, and something to hope for (a goal to work toward). When I've achieved one goal or simply let go of it, I start looking around for the next goal; without it, I'm as directionless as the 2 opposing fish that symbolize my Zodiac sign. I find peace in striving for my goals.

The Tao of Inner Peace offers a self-assessment tool that asks am I
At peace in my body?
At peace in my career?
At peace in my relationships?
At peace in my family?
At peace with my finances?
At peace with myself?
At peace with my world?

According to the Tao, what matters is not the situation but the way in which we perceive it, * and finding peace within ourselves first, casts a whole new light on the other facets of our lives, but most of us are working at it in reverse, struggling to get all our ducks in a row in order to gain peace. It ain't gonna happen. When we're at peace, we become creative and resourceful and flow with life and change in order to see beyond problems to their solutions. Sometime today, I will take 15 minutes to sit in a quiet room, close my eyes, and be open to hearing what the Universe or my God or my inner Tao wants me to know about finding my own inner peace, about my next goal, and about priorities........and this is the first step in my new journey. Maybe you would like to walk along with me for a ways.............feel free to comment, to share your own thoughts and revelations.

* The idea that nothing's good or bad but thinking makes it so, I can accept for the most part, but there are exceptions where I would argue the point. Maybe we'll get to some of those; maybe not.